Believe it...impossible is just a mindset...
As a college student, George Dantzig studied very hard and was always up late into the night, doing his studies. So late sometimes, that he overslept one morning, arriving 20 minutes late for class. He quickly copied the two math problems on the board, assuming they were the homework assignment. It took him several days to work through the two problems but finally he had a break through and dropped the homework on the professor's desk the next day.
Later, on a Sunday morning, George was awakened at 6 a.m. by his excited professor. Since George was late for class, he hadn't heard the professor announce that the two unsolvable equations on the board were mathematical mind teasers that even Einstein hadn't been able to answer. But George Dantzig, working without any thoughts of limitation, had solved not one, but two problems that had stumped mathematicians for hundreds of years. Simply put, George solved the problems because he didn't know he couldn't.
We should keep reminding ourselves that we have tremendous reservoirs of potential within us, and therefore we are quite capable of doing anything we set our mind to. All we must do is figure out how we can do it, not whether or not we can. We can do anything as long as we focus on the goal and not on the obstacles.
Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men, who find it easier to live in the world they have been given than to explore the power they have to change it.
Impossible is not a fact; it's an opinion.
Impossible is not a declaration; It's a dare!
Impossible is nothing but a mindset!
What mindset will you accept?
Monday, September 1, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
Amigo.. :)
Ever thought what a friend actually is!!??
We keep making so many friends throughout our lives, we keep doing things together, learning things with them, keep going to them for each and every help, messing up things big time and still we know they will accept us and be there for us...
Some thoughts crossed my mind when i was thinking how the concept of friendship ever came
We keep making so many friends throughout our lives, we keep doing things together, learning things with them, keep going to them for each and every help, messing up things big time and still we know they will accept us and be there for us...
Some thoughts crossed my mind when i was thinking how the concept of friendship ever came
into being... wikipedia defines FRIENDSHIP as "a term used to denote co-operative and supportive behavior between two or more beings"... this is one topic about which people have written oodles about... something i read in a mail today made me realise that we all need a friend and no matter how friendship started its never gonna end.. :)
jus wanted to share the mail here..
My mother used to ask me what the most important part of the body is. Through the years I would take a guess at what I thought was the correct Answer.
When I was younger, I thought sound was very important to us as humans, so I said, 'My ears, Mommy.' She said, 'No. Many people are deaf. But you keep thinking about it and I will ask you again soon.'
Several years passed before she asked me again. Since making my first attempt, I had contemplated the correct answer. So this time I told her, 'Mommy, sight is very important to everybody, so it must be our eyes.' She looked at me and told me, 'You are learning fast, but the answer is not correct because there are many people who are blind.'
Stumped again, I continued my quest for knowledge and over the years, Mother asked me a couple more times and always her answer was, 'No. But you are getting smarter every year, my child.' Then one year, my grandfather died. Everybody was hurt. Everybody was crying. Even my father cried. I remember that especially because it was only the second time I saw him cry. My Mom looked at me when it was our turn to say our final good-bye to my Grandfather.
She asked me, 'Do you know the most important body part yet, my dear?'
I was shocked when she asked me this now. I always thought this was a game between her and me. She saw the confusion on my face and told me, 'This question is very important. It shows that you have really lived in your life. For every body part you gave me in the past, I have told you were wrong and I have given you an example why. But today is the day you need to learn this important lesson.'
She looked down at me as only a mother can. I saw her eyes well up with tears. She said, 'My dear, the most important body part is your shoulder.'
I asked, 'Is it because it holds up my head?' She replied, 'No, it is because it can hold the head of a friend or a loved one when they cry. Everybody needs a shoulder to cry on sometime in life, my dear. I only hope that you have enough love and friends that you will always have a shoulder to cry on when you need it.'
Then and there I knew the most important body part is not a selfish one. It is made for others and not for yourself. It is sympathetic to the pain of others.
People will forget what you said. People will forget what you did . But people will NEVER forget how you made them feel.
And this is wat i feel... FRIEND is one person whom i can always go to without thinkin twice, with whom i can speak my own self and don have to really pretend, with whom i feel no ego, with whom yu feel all selflessness...who makes you feel cared for always, who makes you feeel loved, who gives you an ear even when the whole world is not listening to you, who gives you the unselfish shoulder to lean on...to whom you can always say... you are mine.. :)
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Love Quote of the Month..
Few lines i read in one of the website last week... quite very simple and true words... written by someone in love.. :)
I can let go,
I can forgive,
I can move on,
but i WILL never stop loving you..
I can let go,
I can forgive,
I can move on,
but i WILL never stop loving you..
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Kahin To...
Some lines that had to find a place in my blog...something that i keep singing since quite a time now.. :)
So here they are..
Kahin to.. kahin to
Hogi wo,
Duniya jahan tu mere saath hai..
Jahan mein, jahan tu,
Aur jahan, bass tere mere jazbaat hai,
Hogi jahan subah teri,
Palko ki, kirano mein,
Jaane naa kahan wo duniya hai,
Jaane naa wo hai bhi ya nahi,
Jahan meri zindagi mujhse,
Itni khafa nahi...
Saasein kho gayi hai kiski aahon mein,
Mein kho gayi hu jaane kiski baahon mein,
Manzilon se raahein doodhti chali,
Kho gayi hai manzil kahin rahon mein..
Kahin to, kahin to,
Hai nasha..
Teri meri har mulaqaat mein..
Jahan hai tu, meri hassi,
Meri khushi, meri jaan…
So here they are..
Kahin to.. kahin to
Hogi wo,
Duniya jahan tu mere saath hai..
Jahan mein, jahan tu,
Aur jahan, bass tere mere jazbaat hai,
Hogi jahan subah teri,
Palko ki, kirano mein,
Jaane naa kahan wo duniya hai,
Jaane naa wo hai bhi ya nahi,
Jahan meri zindagi mujhse,
Itni khafa nahi...
Saasein kho gayi hai kiski aahon mein,
Mein kho gayi hu jaane kiski baahon mein,
Manzilon se raahein doodhti chali,
Kho gayi hai manzil kahin rahon mein..
Kahin to, kahin to,
Hai nasha..
Teri meri har mulaqaat mein..
Jahan hai tu, meri hassi,
Meri khushi, meri jaan…
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Devil's Advocate..
Some thought provoking stuff... some video that my brother sent me a couple of days back made me think twice before I could complain about my own life!! This video is about this small kid who speaks in so many languages to sell his peacock fans…he has not seen a school is his life…but speaks languages so that the different tourists will understand what he is saying… :)
i always used to think that life is unfair to me...i always felt i am not even living my own life...may be jus doing things that everyone else is telling me to do...rather than doing something that i would have wanted to do!! i always felt things were imposed on me...i am sure everyone makes compromises in life... you dont really get all that you ever wanted for your life!! i dont know how good it is to look back into the pages of life gone yellow...but sometimes it helps...surely it does... you realize how much you have grown up in life...how much you have learnt from things and people whom you met... and sometimes i feel like i lived in a painted life...a world painted by people around me... a world where i dint really know or understand what i was doing...but all i did was do my job in the space given to me at that time...and doesnt it sound so perfect now?? We all do that...at some point in our lives we do make decisions that are overwhelmed by others...i always wanted to advocate my own desires...thinking why always do i have to do things that others tell me rather than doing my own thing!! And then i realize that i atleast have the privilege of looking back at my life and saying i lived a life...and there still are people who cant remember where or to whom they were born!! there are people who still cant manage to fill their stomach full cuz they cant afford to do that...and i see myself complaining about the food that i get...not thinking that i am atleast getting it... there are still people who are not so privileged to get an education...and i see myself thinking that i could have gotten a better degree... there are some small children i see on the roads who are urging you to buy just one handkerchief from them...that will fetch them 2 Rupees...and may be a nite's food!! and i say i dont like my profession cuz my manager makes me work too much!! i spend almost a fortune to learn some new foreign language cuz that’s the “IN” thing to be knowing a new language… and I see this small kid speaking in different languages to make more customers buy his stuff… I don’t step out in the sun saying its sultry and it makes me tired…and I see these small feet wandering ceaselessly to acquire a living…and what a life is that!? I know we all go thru hardships and difficult commitments in our lives… but there are some who go thru difficult states jus to even obtain a life…
the next time before I say life has been unfair to me…I am definitely gonna think about this lingo kid…who doesn’t even care for the rain or sun…or the fun or the hardships...or the pain or the suffering...or for what hes missing in his life...cuz he has a bigger concern… he has to sell his fans before dusk so that he can get some money that can afford him food for the day… cuz thats LIFE for him...
And I used to think life is unfair to me!!??
Is there one who is advocating for him!!?? And still he smiles.. :)
i always used to think that life is unfair to me...i always felt i am not even living my own life...may be jus doing things that everyone else is telling me to do...rather than doing something that i would have wanted to do!! i always felt things were imposed on me...i am sure everyone makes compromises in life... you dont really get all that you ever wanted for your life!! i dont know how good it is to look back into the pages of life gone yellow...but sometimes it helps...surely it does... you realize how much you have grown up in life...how much you have learnt from things and people whom you met... and sometimes i feel like i lived in a painted life...a world painted by people around me... a world where i dint really know or understand what i was doing...but all i did was do my job in the space given to me at that time...and doesnt it sound so perfect now?? We all do that...at some point in our lives we do make decisions that are overwhelmed by others...i always wanted to advocate my own desires...thinking why always do i have to do things that others tell me rather than doing my own thing!! And then i realize that i atleast have the privilege of looking back at my life and saying i lived a life...and there still are people who cant remember where or to whom they were born!! there are people who still cant manage to fill their stomach full cuz they cant afford to do that...and i see myself complaining about the food that i get...not thinking that i am atleast getting it... there are still people who are not so privileged to get an education...and i see myself thinking that i could have gotten a better degree... there are some small children i see on the roads who are urging you to buy just one handkerchief from them...that will fetch them 2 Rupees...and may be a nite's food!! and i say i dont like my profession cuz my manager makes me work too much!! i spend almost a fortune to learn some new foreign language cuz that’s the “IN” thing to be knowing a new language… and I see this small kid speaking in different languages to make more customers buy his stuff… I don’t step out in the sun saying its sultry and it makes me tired…and I see these small feet wandering ceaselessly to acquire a living…and what a life is that!? I know we all go thru hardships and difficult commitments in our lives… but there are some who go thru difficult states jus to even obtain a life…
the next time before I say life has been unfair to me…I am definitely gonna think about this lingo kid…who doesn’t even care for the rain or sun…or the fun or the hardships...or the pain or the suffering...or for what hes missing in his life...cuz he has a bigger concern… he has to sell his fans before dusk so that he can get some money that can afford him food for the day… cuz thats LIFE for him...
And I used to think life is unfair to me!!??
Is there one who is advocating for him!!?? And still he smiles.. :)
Friday, August 8, 2008
Tera Deewana..
Kaise kahoon…tujhse roobaroo
Hai yahaan dabe hue
dil ke kai armaan
Dushwar tere bin
hai ye saara jahaan
Ye dil khol doon
kambhakt tu kar ishaara
Mujhme shaamil tu hai sada
Jane jahaan main tera deewana…
Hai yahaan dabe hue
dil ke kai armaan
Dushwar tere bin
hai ye saara jahaan
Ye dil khol doon
kambhakt tu kar ishaara
Mujhme shaamil tu hai sada
Jane jahaan main tera deewana…
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Entry Level Dreams.. :)
Entry Level Trainee Professional (ELTP)... i know it doesnt ring any bell in your minds... except until yu are a great ELTP...well it does more than jus ringing the right bells for me.. its something so close to me...My days as an ELTP in Satyam...those were the fabulous 3 months that wil be the closest to my heart always.. joining formalities in viceroy.. pre ELTP assessment @ East wing STC...orientation/induction @ STC CC... and then the series of loooong fun filled days in East wing...amazing rains in hyd... unforgettable trips 2 bahadurpally everyday... in the cosiness of the super deluxe buses... those waits at the football ground bus stop...and then those fights 2 get d best seat wen d bus arrives... those resentments between the northie and southie gang in d bus over which language song the driver shud play...thank GOD the driver got so pissed off that he actually stopped playing songs after a few days...ahh and how can one ever forget the overly smooth roads of bahadurpally village... any sane person wud have gotten a headache travellin in those roads...but all was FUNNNN....and then those morning and evening shifts in CC...those runs for d bus...those calls 2 the busrep to stop d bus near the airport runway... those teusday saree sessions... those amazing breakfasts and evening snacks at d CB cafe... cant forget the ever so tasty chicken dosa.. and the awesome frankies...
And the best part was...afcourse the weekly assessments... ahh..raghuveer sir...hanu ghosala...vijaya kaparthi... oww wat a program manager man...she hated the site of me i think...jus dint lik me for no reason watsoever... according to her i was never "PROACTIVE"... may be i shud hav shown my proactivity in getting her out of her role itself man...wat a lady... :)
and who can forget our funny seminars... people, jus because they had been given a chance, spoke about what all and what not... so much for one 15 minute seminar....and that seminar actually became "THE" topic of the day, "THE" highlight of the day... amazing topics.. :)
those days of case studies...all masti and no studies... all we knew was that we were making something great rather than breaking wat was already there... final day...well our team dint hav a deliverable cuz of our soooo effortful efforts.. :)
those sale seasons in shopper's stop/mochi/pantaloons... those trips to the hyd central/mangatrai...those visits to abids/choodi bazaar/necklace road...those hot hot biryanis in paradise...those bowls of yummy double ka meetha... its all magic...i think it still gives me a nice flavour in my mouth.. and who cud forget the awesssssome alankrita day...what a day and wat major fun!! i miss those days...more than wat any words cud ever describe...those days have given me more than i can ever say... :)
i will cherish every bit of it always.. :)
And the best part was...afcourse the weekly assessments... ahh..raghuveer sir...hanu ghosala...vijaya kaparthi... oww wat a program manager man...she hated the site of me i think...jus dint lik me for no reason watsoever... according to her i was never "PROACTIVE"... may be i shud hav shown my proactivity in getting her out of her role itself man...wat a lady... :)
and who can forget our funny seminars... people, jus because they had been given a chance, spoke about what all and what not... so much for one 15 minute seminar....and that seminar actually became "THE" topic of the day, "THE" highlight of the day... amazing topics.. :)
those days of case studies...all masti and no studies... all we knew was that we were making something great rather than breaking wat was already there... final day...well our team dint hav a deliverable cuz of our soooo effortful efforts.. :)
those sale seasons in shopper's stop/mochi/pantaloons... those trips to the hyd central/mangatrai...those visits to abids/choodi bazaar/necklace road...those hot hot biryanis in paradise...those bowls of yummy double ka meetha... its all magic...i think it still gives me a nice flavour in my mouth.. and who cud forget the awesssssome alankrita day...what a day and wat major fun!! i miss those days...more than wat any words cud ever describe...those days have given me more than i can ever say... :)
i will cherish every bit of it always.. :)
and and and our ever so sweet nagaraju domala.. he was d lifeline of d mainframes practice i guess.. and wat a way to get a gud feedback from the naive ELTPs... wil come one fine day and give a touching speech... " who among you gave a bad feedback for me.. (and instead of asking what he was lacking that we gave a bad feedback...he wil actually blackmail us to give him a better feedback.. he he he)...yu know i was always number one and jus because of yur bad feedback i have moved to the 2nd spot ( i wonder if he was ever number one man...cuz one of my seniors told me he gave the same speech last year...and the year before that.. :)) so people please consider again and give a good feedback for me...it hurt me alot so please dont let me down this time(by d way sir...please don let us down by yur boring presence...please teach us something useful na)..." anyways..those were the days of feedbacks and impressions...and everyone was busy creating a gud one thinking they wil move into the best projects if they stayed gud in those important people's eyes..but who knew in those days that project allocation was all random...based on a pot luck... :)
And these were the things the ELTP dreams were made of...all we knew was that MF has a load of onsite oppurtunities... and we are now part of a BIG BIG corporate world... and we r gonna enter REAL projects and work for REAL BIG (fortune 500) clients... little did we knw what dirt we are getting ourselves into...all we knew was that we were software engineers...in d making...major big people...gonna be doing some major big stuff in life.. :)
saare sapne kahin kho gaye...haaye hum kya se kya ho gaye.. :)
Monday, August 4, 2008
Ahh D August Rain.. :)
Wow so a new start for a new month.. all excited for the new month.. i know this one will have its own share of choppings and churnings... down times and fun times... excitements and disappointments... but inspite of all...its a new month wid a whole new load of things 2 come up... :)
Had quite an eventful month of July... and boy what a month.. so much for the different things and different experiences.. had a ball of a time in every way... whatever were the times.. met new people..did new things.. tasted new kinda cuisines.. went 2 the depth of some relationships that mean some lot to me now.. met some long lost frnds and relatives...tried new wardrobe stuff.. travelled roads never heard of... learnt new dance... shook a leg to sensuous salsa.. had amazing amazing times.. wish all months are as eventful as this one...givin yu lil less on d time to sit back and think but 2 jus LIVE all thats happenin.. :)
Wishin yu all an august AUGUST.. :)
Had quite an eventful month of July... and boy what a month.. so much for the different things and different experiences.. had a ball of a time in every way... whatever were the times.. met new people..did new things.. tasted new kinda cuisines.. went 2 the depth of some relationships that mean some lot to me now.. met some long lost frnds and relatives...tried new wardrobe stuff.. travelled roads never heard of... learnt new dance... shook a leg to sensuous salsa.. had amazing amazing times.. wish all months are as eventful as this one...givin yu lil less on d time to sit back and think but 2 jus LIVE all thats happenin.. :)
Wishin yu all an august AUGUST.. :)
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Children of Heaven..
This is an Iranian Film that deals with a brother and sister and their adventures over a lost pair of shoes.. i know the subject can be something very meagre for someone like you and me who possess dozens of pairs...matching almost every dress in our wardrobe... but if you watch the movie you'll know how much it means for someone who has only that one pair and cant afford to even buy a replacement pair..
The story is simple but must say well taken.. though it just shows the routine life of a gardener whos income is just enough to make his 2 children get an education and treat his ill wife at home...but the emotions depicted in some clips are really touching.. the love between the siblings, the way they plan to hide the lost shoes from their parents, the way each one sacrifices for the other...its all jus too touching..
Simple movie with a theme to touch your heart... watched something like this after so many days... jus the right thing for a lazy rainy afternoon.. :)
The story is simple but must say well taken.. though it just shows the routine life of a gardener whos income is just enough to make his 2 children get an education and treat his ill wife at home...but the emotions depicted in some clips are really touching.. the love between the siblings, the way they plan to hide the lost shoes from their parents, the way each one sacrifices for the other...its all jus too touching..
Simple movie with a theme to touch your heart... watched something like this after so many days... jus the right thing for a lazy rainy afternoon.. :)
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Kabhi Kabhi…
Kabhi kabhi aditi
zindagi mein yun hi koi apna lagta hai…
Kabhi kabhi aditi
Wo bichchad jaye tho ek sapna lagta hai…
Bas yun hi… but it jus so happens that some relationships that dint mean anything at one time suddenly seem so important to you…some people who were nothing more than jus known people to you suddenly become some special people to you…you feel special, being cared for and being loved…being beside them and spending time with them… I don want to forget the last 3 days I spent being close to some people who mean some lot 2 me nw… I never gave a thought to some relationships… but now I know I’ve got to cherish each and every person given to me in this life…I’ve always been quite a lot selective when it comes to relationships but may be now I’ve learnt that everyone is special in some way or the other and everyone comes into your life with some purpose… some things are jus meant to be cherished… am happy that I’ve learnt to cherish those special things.. :)
zindagi mein yun hi koi apna lagta hai…
Kabhi kabhi aditi
Wo bichchad jaye tho ek sapna lagta hai…
Bas yun hi… but it jus so happens that some relationships that dint mean anything at one time suddenly seem so important to you…some people who were nothing more than jus known people to you suddenly become some special people to you…you feel special, being cared for and being loved…being beside them and spending time with them… I don want to forget the last 3 days I spent being close to some people who mean some lot 2 me nw… I never gave a thought to some relationships… but now I know I’ve got to cherish each and every person given to me in this life…I’ve always been quite a lot selective when it comes to relationships but may be now I’ve learnt that everyone is special in some way or the other and everyone comes into your life with some purpose… some things are jus meant to be cherished… am happy that I’ve learnt to cherish those special things.. :)
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Salsa Spreads Magic.. :)
He he he... i feel gud...it jus feels so great that you hav been able to do things that yu dreamt of doin someday... yeahhhhhhh that Salsa nites over and the salsa fever never ends i guess... it jus keeps spreading its magic on and on and on... jus lik one good thing leads to a million gud things.. hope the magic never stops.. :)
i dunno what am blabbering... but am jus happy... bro is finally here...his india trip is turning out to be lil messed up cuz of some things at his end getting delayed... but this week has turned out 2 be soooooo hectic...started out gud with the salsa nite on monday... and loads of photo sessions and a million smiles and some new friendships for me.. was happy and smiling my way to happiness.. :) and bro arrives on monday nite...and guess wattt!!?? no jet lag this time!?? guess hes so stressed and unslept that hes almost gotten over the jetlag bak in US itself.. yeahhh...loads happened wid him over the week...and finally after all this...where am i now!!?? well well...chillin out in K'nkumari... a trip 2 meet grandparents...spent some time wid some close cousins...and never thought i'll be so balanced at managing things at this end of the world... i mean...i never really got along with anyone here especially wen i was super excited about comin here...and now wen am almost scared to come here alone..well well am actually havin a nice time... met some cousins today...had some photo sessions...walked some miles in search of.. (i dunno watt...but the walk was great...).. watched the rain touch the peaks of western ghats...now this is one thing that was soooo soooo picturesque... you could actually see the clouds dropping rain on the mountains...!!!
hogged like HELLLLL.... hav been eating since the time i came here i think.... had some meaningful talks wid people who mean some lot... may be never gave thought to some things in life ever and now i realized that there are things waiting to be tried out... people waiting to be given a try...after all..you must take care of all thats been given to you...dunno why but feel quite satiated... may be becuz i took care of some things which i never spared a thought in my routine life... :)
life to be spent in all its satiety is... jus giv a try to all that comes your way...take care and feel blessed to be with all thats given to you...fills you with a unique sense of ubiquity...satiety.. o..oo... is that too much philosophy!? neva mind... me am always like dat...yu knw rite!? :)
hav a great weekend all of you... and a gud start 4 a new week.. :)
cheers..
eva.. :)
i dunno what am blabbering... but am jus happy... bro is finally here...his india trip is turning out to be lil messed up cuz of some things at his end getting delayed... but this week has turned out 2 be soooooo hectic...started out gud with the salsa nite on monday... and loads of photo sessions and a million smiles and some new friendships for me.. was happy and smiling my way to happiness.. :) and bro arrives on monday nite...and guess wattt!!?? no jet lag this time!?? guess hes so stressed and unslept that hes almost gotten over the jetlag bak in US itself.. yeahhh...loads happened wid him over the week...and finally after all this...where am i now!!?? well well...chillin out in K'nkumari... a trip 2 meet grandparents...spent some time wid some close cousins...and never thought i'll be so balanced at managing things at this end of the world... i mean...i never really got along with anyone here especially wen i was super excited about comin here...and now wen am almost scared to come here alone..well well am actually havin a nice time... met some cousins today...had some photo sessions...walked some miles in search of.. (i dunno watt...but the walk was great...).. watched the rain touch the peaks of western ghats...now this is one thing that was soooo soooo picturesque... you could actually see the clouds dropping rain on the mountains...!!!
hogged like HELLLLL.... hav been eating since the time i came here i think.... had some meaningful talks wid people who mean some lot... may be never gave thought to some things in life ever and now i realized that there are things waiting to be tried out... people waiting to be given a try...after all..you must take care of all thats been given to you...dunno why but feel quite satiated... may be becuz i took care of some things which i never spared a thought in my routine life... :)
life to be spent in all its satiety is... jus giv a try to all that comes your way...take care and feel blessed to be with all thats given to you...fills you with a unique sense of ubiquity...satiety.. o..oo... is that too much philosophy!? neva mind... me am always like dat...yu knw rite!? :)
hav a great weekend all of you... and a gud start 4 a new week.. :)
cheers..
eva.. :)
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Friday Salsa.. :)
Am writing almost about 2 months... i know the few people who once used 2 be regulars on my blog have left... cuz am myself not a regular on my blog.. :)
Was happy after a long long time...don ask why... there r some times when you want reasons to even smile...and no matter how big a reason it is...its jus not enuff to give that happiness to you.. and then there are times like this when you jus feel happy no matter whatever happens to the whole world...you can jus feel happy and make others happy and you feel everything around is so good...may be in normal scientific languages they call it mood swings...but who cares... i am HAPPY...and that is what actually matters at all.. :)
Loads happened in these few days...actually in the last 2 months...went thru almost hell... may be even now the hell persists to show its existence every now and then... but may be its jus that i have and still am learning new ways to shoo the hell outta my life.. am surprizzzed myself how i could have been like what i am now.. how i could be going thru the worst possible in one end and still keeping my temper and senses totally in place in the other end.. don feel its an achievement but it jus feels great...when one part of my life doesnt even know that the other is almost dying.. happens.. but am happy at the end of it all and no matter how dark the tunnel seems i know hope is shining its light at the end of it.. :)
Sometimes friends whom you thought were as important to you as your life...leave you and make you believe that you made a mistake in calling them your friend... but as they say.. so.. "i believe, no matter how good a friend is they are going to hurt you every now and then.. and you must forgive them for that.. " and so you forgive your friends and forget all that happened and go on and on...and may be one day when they cross all limits... you jus... again forgive them and move on... but may be this time you move on and start on a new journey... a journey to find some new friends cuz the ones who left you were not really worth it.. and may be then you realize...life after all isnt so hard to be lived without them.. :)
And so you move on to a new journey and time wont be so unkind not to give you a few moments to make you realize that you deserve a few smiles... a few heartfelt laughs... a few memorable moments that wil become the new memories of your life to overshadow the lost ones... every new day teaches you that your life moves on and so you have to...
This weekend started with some few things that made me so so happy... may be a step towards doing my own things in life...may be doing some things i always dreamt of as being away from clutches...started with some Salsa...Salsa being one of the few things in life that i always wanted to give a try to... i never thought i wil have so much fun...it was so good dancing dancing and jus dancing... you almost forget the whole world... you dont care whatever happens in the world cuz you are in a new world... thanks to cheekku for taking me into this new world... in d afternoon suddenly she calls up and says your salsa classes start 2day...so be ready and come for it... never thought wud make it thru...... met so many wonderful people.. feels good to see that you can actually dance and even people want to dance with you.. :) had a great great time... i dunno whatever i have written about my first experience with salsa is actually less than even an underestimate but for the first time am lost for words... it has been one of the experiences that made me feel so much at peace... finally atleast something in life that i always wanted to do... HAPPY.. is all i can say.., Satiated.. :)
Then it was the next good thing... having a peaceful relaxing coffee and dessert @ ccd... coming back home in style in the middle of nite... riding on the roads as if you rule them.. :) have a long long chat with some special friends... and then the greatest good thing of the weekend... one of my best best friend is leaving country...i mite not see this friend ever again in life... but am so happy... cuz this is something i have seen him waiting for since the time i met him.. and finally it came to happen for him... i almost felt like double wishes coming true for me at one shott.. :)
it was something different this time as he was leaving...it was a mixed feeling of happiness but at the same time i had this fear of missing him... but may be my happiness overpowered everything... it dint give me time enuff to react... i felt some emotions... dunno what it was... happiness/fear/sadness/satiety... may be jus HAPPY for him.. :)
finished the salsa friday with a walk with kiddo @ abt 1 in d nite...cudnt really believe the streets were so beautiful in the grey moonlite.. and the wind was jus so amazing...wud have made any sane person become HAPPY.. :)
Was happy after a long long time...don ask why... there r some times when you want reasons to even smile...and no matter how big a reason it is...its jus not enuff to give that happiness to you.. and then there are times like this when you jus feel happy no matter whatever happens to the whole world...you can jus feel happy and make others happy and you feel everything around is so good...may be in normal scientific languages they call it mood swings...but who cares... i am HAPPY...and that is what actually matters at all.. :)
Loads happened in these few days...actually in the last 2 months...went thru almost hell... may be even now the hell persists to show its existence every now and then... but may be its jus that i have and still am learning new ways to shoo the hell outta my life.. am surprizzzed myself how i could have been like what i am now.. how i could be going thru the worst possible in one end and still keeping my temper and senses totally in place in the other end.. don feel its an achievement but it jus feels great...when one part of my life doesnt even know that the other is almost dying.. happens.. but am happy at the end of it all and no matter how dark the tunnel seems i know hope is shining its light at the end of it.. :)
Sometimes friends whom you thought were as important to you as your life...leave you and make you believe that you made a mistake in calling them your friend... but as they say.. so.. "i believe, no matter how good a friend is they are going to hurt you every now and then.. and you must forgive them for that.. " and so you forgive your friends and forget all that happened and go on and on...and may be one day when they cross all limits... you jus... again forgive them and move on... but may be this time you move on and start on a new journey... a journey to find some new friends cuz the ones who left you were not really worth it.. and may be then you realize...life after all isnt so hard to be lived without them.. :)
And so you move on to a new journey and time wont be so unkind not to give you a few moments to make you realize that you deserve a few smiles... a few heartfelt laughs... a few memorable moments that wil become the new memories of your life to overshadow the lost ones... every new day teaches you that your life moves on and so you have to...
This weekend started with some few things that made me so so happy... may be a step towards doing my own things in life...may be doing some things i always dreamt of as being away from clutches...started with some Salsa...Salsa being one of the few things in life that i always wanted to give a try to... i never thought i wil have so much fun...it was so good dancing dancing and jus dancing... you almost forget the whole world... you dont care whatever happens in the world cuz you are in a new world... thanks to cheekku for taking me into this new world... in d afternoon suddenly she calls up and says your salsa classes start 2day...so be ready and come for it... never thought wud make it thru...... met so many wonderful people.. feels good to see that you can actually dance and even people want to dance with you.. :) had a great great time... i dunno whatever i have written about my first experience with salsa is actually less than even an underestimate but for the first time am lost for words... it has been one of the experiences that made me feel so much at peace... finally atleast something in life that i always wanted to do... HAPPY.. is all i can say.., Satiated.. :)
Then it was the next good thing... having a peaceful relaxing coffee and dessert @ ccd... coming back home in style in the middle of nite... riding on the roads as if you rule them.. :) have a long long chat with some special friends... and then the greatest good thing of the weekend... one of my best best friend is leaving country...i mite not see this friend ever again in life... but am so happy... cuz this is something i have seen him waiting for since the time i met him.. and finally it came to happen for him... i almost felt like double wishes coming true for me at one shott.. :)
it was something different this time as he was leaving...it was a mixed feeling of happiness but at the same time i had this fear of missing him... but may be my happiness overpowered everything... it dint give me time enuff to react... i felt some emotions... dunno what it was... happiness/fear/sadness/satiety... may be jus HAPPY for him.. :)
finished the salsa friday with a walk with kiddo @ abt 1 in d nite...cudnt really believe the streets were so beautiful in the grey moonlite.. and the wind was jus so amazing...wud have made any sane person become HAPPY.. :)
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Yun Hi Nahi Dil Lubhata Koi.. :)
Tera mujhse
hai pehle ka naata koi...
yun hi nahi dil
lubhata koi...
How true... and how much to be thought about!!?? well well not here to really open up a philosophical journey about something... this is something that struck me from the most recent movie that i watched... Jane Tu.. Ya Jane na.. :)
Great movie... usual storyline... predictable ending... but still enjoyed each and every moment of it.. reached the thertre a good 30 minutes after the show started.. hopefully din miss anything to regret about.. :) and don even ask how i reached the theatre...travelled almost 40 kms to reach there... was in office... and knew wasnt going 4 the show as cheekku had some errands.. but luckily she calls up at 5:30 and tells me..chal yaar jane de... chal apan movie chalte hain...kya ho jayega jyada se jyada... and ohh... all i cud tell her was ki babes if i start now from my office i cant reach city anytime beofre 7!!..well who cares...giv it a try...reached madhya kailash at 7 and the show starts at 7 as well.. :) no auto is ready 2 go 2 Sathyam...thanks to the traffic...there was jus no way anyone cud have made a way out.. so wat next?? have never crossed a signal when green... not in chennai... not on a day when the traffic is so terrific.. :) thanks to chekkuu did all these crazy things 2 get into somewhere...walked to gandhi nagar... somehow managed to get an auto till kottur...and then wat!!?? almost emotionally blackmailed the guy to take us 2 Sathyam... got d ticket from the Window.. and finally we were there... our cozy seats waiting for us.. :)
so what if some part of the movie was over already...as if we missed so much of the story...actually some said even if yu wud have missed the whole movie yu wudnt have really missed anything..ha ha.. but ya twas gud 2 watch it... after so many days watched some decent original comedy in a movie.. and even felt gud...the movie has been taken wonderfully.. with some realities of relationships being shown jus the way they exist in these days.. :)
hmmm... so next time yu start liking someone... well well... may be it cud be that special someone whos meant jus for you.. :)
cheers... Jane Tu... Ya Jane na... Maane tu.. Ya Mane na.. :)
hai pehle ka naata koi...
yun hi nahi dil
lubhata koi...
How true... and how much to be thought about!!?? well well not here to really open up a philosophical journey about something... this is something that struck me from the most recent movie that i watched... Jane Tu.. Ya Jane na.. :)
Great movie... usual storyline... predictable ending... but still enjoyed each and every moment of it.. reached the thertre a good 30 minutes after the show started.. hopefully din miss anything to regret about.. :) and don even ask how i reached the theatre...travelled almost 40 kms to reach there... was in office... and knew wasnt going 4 the show as cheekku had some errands.. but luckily she calls up at 5:30 and tells me..chal yaar jane de... chal apan movie chalte hain...kya ho jayega jyada se jyada... and ohh... all i cud tell her was ki babes if i start now from my office i cant reach city anytime beofre 7!!..well who cares...giv it a try...reached madhya kailash at 7 and the show starts at 7 as well.. :) no auto is ready 2 go 2 Sathyam...thanks to the traffic...there was jus no way anyone cud have made a way out.. so wat next?? have never crossed a signal when green... not in chennai... not on a day when the traffic is so terrific.. :) thanks to chekkuu did all these crazy things 2 get into somewhere...walked to gandhi nagar... somehow managed to get an auto till kottur...and then wat!!?? almost emotionally blackmailed the guy to take us 2 Sathyam... got d ticket from the Window.. and finally we were there... our cozy seats waiting for us.. :)
so what if some part of the movie was over already...as if we missed so much of the story...actually some said even if yu wud have missed the whole movie yu wudnt have really missed anything..ha ha.. but ya twas gud 2 watch it... after so many days watched some decent original comedy in a movie.. and even felt gud...the movie has been taken wonderfully.. with some realities of relationships being shown jus the way they exist in these days.. :)
hmmm... so next time yu start liking someone... well well... may be it cud be that special someone whos meant jus for you.. :)
cheers... Jane Tu... Ya Jane na... Maane tu.. Ya Mane na.. :)
Friday, May 16, 2008
Kuch Dil Ke Kareeb...
Jaane kya mujhse zamaana chahta hai,
Mera dil todkar mujhe hasana chahta hai,
Jaane kya baat chalakti hai mere chehre se,
Har shaks mujhe aazmaana chahta hai..
Mera dil todkar mujhe hasana chahta hai,
Jaane kya baat chalakti hai mere chehre se,
Har shaks mujhe aazmaana chahta hai..
Monday, May 12, 2008
Mutation..
Why is a change always so difficult!? When I was a student I had this one seminar that I attended and one of the activities in that seminar required the participants to come out of their comfort zones. It was a difficult exercise…but that is when I learnt that theres something called a comfort zone for each person under each situation. But what exactly is the comfort zone!?? Somethings that seem totally impossible in the beginning become quite easy once attained…and tend to become our comfort zones once we reach them. As has been experienced by me on more occasions than one…that nothing in this real world is amaranthine except for change itself…and still a change is so difficult always…painful at times and fatal for some who cant understand this simple dogma of life.
Its so simple and easy to write things down…why cant the reality be as simple as that…a friend of mine once wrote to me…”most of our difficulties are becuz our expectations are not met…to end your problems… either change your expectations or accept the reality.” The scope of the doctrine called LIFE… but one single thing that every sane human thrives for is…to lead a happy and satisfied life…SATIATED…is what every soul wants to be at the end of it all…at the end of all the toil…
I think of times when I really was satiated but without knowing that… was looking for every other thing in this world… and now that I know what I have lost… I still wonder…what I lost and what I gained…
Sometimes I cry thinking of the things I have lost… and life ahead seems so really impossible without those lost ones… and then I sit and think why cant life jus be the way it is now …forever…!!?? Why do things really have to change… and sometimes I feel why is there time enough to even think about the change…sometimes I feel I am strong enough to face every situation and every change that life throws on me…and then again sometimes I feel I don have strength enough to stand and face that change that’s coming my way…I look at it approaching me and try to run away from it…faster than it…so that it cant catch me… so that I don’t have to face it…
Change is difficult to face…easy to write about…and…forget it…
Change is unchangeable…gotto live with it… :)
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
A Dash of Spice..
Writing about something freakish that’s been happening with me lately… dunno if I should connect it to the various things or not…but somethings been disturbing me and I jus feel peace bloggin it down…last week was an eventful week…started with a long weekend as I was down with some food poisoning…so bunked office for a couple of days…and then…had a pre wedding treat with our old satyam gang…(no not mine…and treats are always fun wen yu r not d one paying for it.. :)) and it was much fun 2 be back the memory lane…meetin our old gang and flirting wid d old stories.. :)
Sunday the usual routine of church and other stuff…and shopping as well…and wen I was back @ home…well that’s wen I remembered that I had a hell load of pending work from office which needed to be done…then wat!!?? Slept at abt 3 to finish such damn boring chores… :( I hate codes…let them be in any language or script…they are so ediotic…I mean c’mon GOD only knows why such simple things are implemented using such long codes…now for instance in my next project one module is about adding a new code alphabet to some dumb stuff…now that will hardly take 15 minutes of coding for some person who understands the language the code has been written in…(and may be even in 15 yrs you wil not understand a word of it if yu don’t know the dumb language...sorry the language I work on is not searchable with google also…so no help available online as well…well am blessed.. :))but for this dumb thing…we have a spec doc of 5 pages….an Functional Doc of 6-8 pages and a TD of God knows how many pages….c’mon guys isn’t that useless….wastage of money/energy/resources/time…almost everything…huh.
Forget it…that’s the work part…so the week starts with a lot of new work assignments…and believe me I neva felt so stressed with work ever in my 3 yrs IT life…k fine…am not saying anything more abt my work…that’s boring…and irritating..
Everything was fine…was havin a good time at everything…and a minor accident happened…nw accidents are something irritating… I mean yu get hurt and all…and then you have to take some dumb painful injections…and huh…wait for all your wounds to heal…Thank GOD it wasn’t a big one…but I was jus thinkin of the mishap…I mean I dunno how the vehicle jus fell…there was nothing that cud have gone wrong…but as they say…may be it was jus meant to happen…
So now what am I tryin 2 prove writin all this stuff which cud be boring for anyone to read….sometimes somethings happen which we feel cud have no significance in our present or future….and may be somethings hit you back jus when you thought they cud never occur…and sometimes…you don really care whatever happens…you jus flow with life minding nothing, expecting nothing and still you lack nothing…I am jus somehow happy… I mean theres nothing great happenin @ work or life…and still I feel like being blessed with oodles of patience and spirit….a dash of spice…fills me and keeps me going…
Sunday the usual routine of church and other stuff…and shopping as well…and wen I was back @ home…well that’s wen I remembered that I had a hell load of pending work from office which needed to be done…then wat!!?? Slept at abt 3 to finish such damn boring chores… :( I hate codes…let them be in any language or script…they are so ediotic…I mean c’mon GOD only knows why such simple things are implemented using such long codes…now for instance in my next project one module is about adding a new code alphabet to some dumb stuff…now that will hardly take 15 minutes of coding for some person who understands the language the code has been written in…(and may be even in 15 yrs you wil not understand a word of it if yu don’t know the dumb language...sorry the language I work on is not searchable with google also…so no help available online as well…well am blessed.. :))but for this dumb thing…we have a spec doc of 5 pages….an Functional Doc of 6-8 pages and a TD of God knows how many pages….c’mon guys isn’t that useless….wastage of money/energy/resources/time…almost everything…huh.
Forget it…that’s the work part…so the week starts with a lot of new work assignments…and believe me I neva felt so stressed with work ever in my 3 yrs IT life…k fine…am not saying anything more abt my work…that’s boring…and irritating..
Everything was fine…was havin a good time at everything…and a minor accident happened…nw accidents are something irritating… I mean yu get hurt and all…and then you have to take some dumb painful injections…and huh…wait for all your wounds to heal…Thank GOD it wasn’t a big one…but I was jus thinkin of the mishap…I mean I dunno how the vehicle jus fell…there was nothing that cud have gone wrong…but as they say…may be it was jus meant to happen…
So now what am I tryin 2 prove writin all this stuff which cud be boring for anyone to read….sometimes somethings happen which we feel cud have no significance in our present or future….and may be somethings hit you back jus when you thought they cud never occur…and sometimes…you don really care whatever happens…you jus flow with life minding nothing, expecting nothing and still you lack nothing…I am jus somehow happy… I mean theres nothing great happenin @ work or life…and still I feel like being blessed with oodles of patience and spirit….a dash of spice…fills me and keeps me going…
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Here I am...
Here I am…this is me…is this really me!??
Thinking of somethings that are beyond my scope of understanding….somethings that I jus don’t have any control over…I mean…ok fine, picture this scenario to get a better understanding of wat am blabbering….
I am a born dreamer…as a child I dreamt of something..and as I grew I came to the realization that things in dreams are not real…people kept saying…dream high to achieve high…my dreams were not so high that cud have been insurmountable…and…what did I gain??! So now I stopped dreaming and started living life with whatever it had to offer…dunno if everything it offered was good or bad…actually now kind of lost…now I don’t even know whats good or bad…but still do I dream?
I know all of us at times are lost…lost in thought or spaces in time…the albatross called LIFE becomes arduous…even if not arduous…may be bewildered with the very existence of itself…and still we spin out our journey…kissing off all that we were searching for in those lost spaces in time…
Some say believe in DESTINY…and I do so…I trust that things happen for a reason…and all that happens was jus meant to be that way…you don really play a part in creating one…you jus play your part of having one… then where does all the drudgery of this real world come from? I mean when all’s written as they say…then why worry!?? But remember nothing comes to pass until you play YOUR part… and is there a wrong or right in playing parts?? May be!!?? I don’t know…but all I know is that…its all written…may be on stars…may be in our hands…may be in some books…may be in some scripts…but still do I believe in DESTINY…
We keep meeting different people at different spaces in time…some we jus don’t remember talking to even…and some we jus cant take out of our thoughts…and some who become a way of our lives…or may be even a reason for us to live…its bliss to be in LOVE…or to be loved…I do not know how different it is…but in this real world…the latter is better…cuz the former does not always reach its destination…if it does..thats the best reward that a LIFE can get…that’s Life fulfilled…in all its ubiquity…
K lemme come back to my post…I dunno why I started writing this post today…I wanted to write for a long time…just embarking by collecting my random thoughts…myriad perceptions…And Here I am…
Been long since I last wrote…and I dunno why its so humdrum for me these days to keep going back in time…I know its all beyond my scope (to make things right..) but then its beyond my scope (to stop thinking of things gone by..)..thats pain…you are brooking something knowing its vain…and still this pain ceases to cease.. And Here I am… :)
Thinking of somethings that are beyond my scope of understanding….somethings that I jus don’t have any control over…I mean…ok fine, picture this scenario to get a better understanding of wat am blabbering….
I am a born dreamer…as a child I dreamt of something..and as I grew I came to the realization that things in dreams are not real…people kept saying…dream high to achieve high…my dreams were not so high that cud have been insurmountable…and…what did I gain??! So now I stopped dreaming and started living life with whatever it had to offer…dunno if everything it offered was good or bad…actually now kind of lost…now I don’t even know whats good or bad…but still do I dream?
I know all of us at times are lost…lost in thought or spaces in time…the albatross called LIFE becomes arduous…even if not arduous…may be bewildered with the very existence of itself…and still we spin out our journey…kissing off all that we were searching for in those lost spaces in time…
Some say believe in DESTINY…and I do so…I trust that things happen for a reason…and all that happens was jus meant to be that way…you don really play a part in creating one…you jus play your part of having one… then where does all the drudgery of this real world come from? I mean when all’s written as they say…then why worry!?? But remember nothing comes to pass until you play YOUR part… and is there a wrong or right in playing parts?? May be!!?? I don’t know…but all I know is that…its all written…may be on stars…may be in our hands…may be in some books…may be in some scripts…but still do I believe in DESTINY…
We keep meeting different people at different spaces in time…some we jus don’t remember talking to even…and some we jus cant take out of our thoughts…and some who become a way of our lives…or may be even a reason for us to live…its bliss to be in LOVE…or to be loved…I do not know how different it is…but in this real world…the latter is better…cuz the former does not always reach its destination…if it does..thats the best reward that a LIFE can get…that’s Life fulfilled…in all its ubiquity…
K lemme come back to my post…I dunno why I started writing this post today…I wanted to write for a long time…just embarking by collecting my random thoughts…myriad perceptions…And Here I am…
Been long since I last wrote…and I dunno why its so humdrum for me these days to keep going back in time…I know its all beyond my scope (to make things right..) but then its beyond my scope (to stop thinking of things gone by..)..thats pain…you are brooking something knowing its vain…and still this pain ceases to cease.. And Here I am… :)
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Comin Back To LIFE...
"Coming Back To Life"
Where were you when I was burned and broken
While the days slipped by from my window watching
Where were you when I was hurt and helpless
Because the things you say and the things you do surround me
While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words
Dying to believe in what you heard
I was staring straight into the shining sun
Lost in thought and lost in time
While the seeds of life and the seeds of change were planted
Outside the rain fell dark and slow
While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime
I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past and coming back to life
I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the waiting had begun
And headed straight..into the shining sun
This is one song that touched me once…and then again and again and again…it keeps touching me in different ways..and bringing me back to LIFE..
One of my most loved Pink Floyd songs ever…I love this song for all that it is…I mean the lyrics, the music, the beats…jus everything is ultimate…one of its kind…one of any kind actually… This song has been interpreted in different ways through out… and am so sure each has a reality bit associated with it… am so sure each of us can relate to some or the whole part of the song… as for me… well I have had different interpretations of the song myself…depending on what I am going thru at that moment… but whatever it may sound…one things for sure…this is one song that really brings you back to life…
Where were you when I was burned and broken
One of my most loved Pink Floyd songs ever…I love this song for all that it is…I mean the lyrics, the music, the beats…jus everything is ultimate…one of its kind…one of any kind actually… This song has been interpreted in different ways through out… and am so sure each has a reality bit associated with it… am so sure each of us can relate to some or the whole part of the song… as for me… well I have had different interpretations of the song myself…depending on what I am going thru at that moment… but whatever it may sound…one things for sure…this is one song that really brings you back to life…
Where were you when I was burned and broken
While the days slipped by from my window watching
Where were you when I was hurt and helpless
Because the things you say and the things you do surround me
This is so true when someone whom you really trusted and cherished…betrays you… leaves you betwixt your own…when you most needed that person… this is a marooned space…where the existence of your present is non existent…still enslaved to the things and times gone by…
While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words
This is so true when someone whom you really trusted and cherished…betrays you… leaves you betwixt your own…when you most needed that person… this is a marooned space…where the existence of your present is non existent…still enslaved to the things and times gone by…
While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words
Dying to believe in what you heard
I was staring straight into the shining sun
To me this is the pain or the real emotion of the song… staring straight into the shining sun… this is the truth that brings us to the asperity of the real world… experiencing and living with the truth… doing away with illusions and assumptions…that is what is the content for life..
Lost in thought and lost in time
To me this is the pain or the real emotion of the song… staring straight into the shining sun… this is the truth that brings us to the asperity of the real world… experiencing and living with the truth… doing away with illusions and assumptions…that is what is the content for life..
Lost in thought and lost in time
While the seeds of life and the seeds of change were planted
Ya this again is the revival planted in you by the asperity of this real world… while you are so lost in the loss you suffered…this real world keeps bringing you back to the things and contents that matter…urging you to continue… your ball-buster part in this real world…when nothing..not even time matters to you..
Outside the rain fell dark and slow
Ya this again is the revival planted in you by the asperity of this real world… while you are so lost in the loss you suffered…this real world keeps bringing you back to the things and contents that matter…urging you to continue… your ball-buster part in this real world…when nothing..not even time matters to you..
Outside the rain fell dark and slow
While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime
Everything outside your own world is so normal and unperturbed…when you are still counting your strings attached to the space and time in past…
I took a heavenly ride through our silence
Everything outside your own world is so normal and unperturbed…when you are still counting your strings attached to the space and time in past…
I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past and coming back to life
And this is the asperity of the song…this is what brings us back to life…everything in life ends…changes…and there are certain things that give us a lot of pain when they end…it is for us to know when things are over…especially relationships…and to let them go…you need time… you need your own space…to make realizations work for yourself…and then you are gonna kill the past and be alive..
And this is the asperity of the song…this is what brings us back to life…everything in life ends…changes…and there are certain things that give us a lot of pain when they end…it is for us to know when things are over…especially relationships…and to let them go…you need time… you need your own space…to make realizations work for yourself…and then you are gonna kill the past and be alive..
And headed straight..into the shining sun
LIFE GOES ON…NO MATTER WHAT… LIVE AND STAY ALIVE..
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Biking with Viewtyy... :)
I know you don get head or tail of what the title suggests...its just an exaggerated version of making something sound extremely good....but this one really is.. i mean atleast for me this experience was something memorable...cudnt hav got a space in my blog else... :)
so read on...may be yu will feel the nerve with me as i write of this experience..
hmmm...k clarifications regarding the title...well i got a new cell phone...as the old one conked completely...and this new ones called VIEWTY...ya thats the name...sounds amazing na...i know...even i am impressed with it as much as i can be.. :)
its a real beauty..ultra sleek looks...amazingly stylish...superbb touchscreen...ultra hott piece to possess....ahem ahem...the price is ultra hot as well.. but does that matter so much when yu have so much more for yourself !!?? well def not for me.. :)
haan so here i have this ultra hot cell phone with me...one of the hottest selling in the market at present...and am soooo elated with this one...but whats with the biking stuff prefixed with the viewty in my title!?? haan so lemme tell yu how it gets connected..
i have this friend of mine whos been a gadget freak...and an amazing racer...racer of bikes....thats how he had depicted himself when i had seen him first in office...some freaky guy with long straightened hair...all d hip-hop ringtones on d mobile...an amazingly expensive mobile flashing in his hands...and loads of attitude..(dunno in the right direction or not...but ya this guy has ATTITUDE).. so definitely you cant expect him to answer you straight when you ask him something.. well and thats what he did.. ATTITUDE you see....i think am using this word too much...actually i feel when people cant really express another person's behaviour or may be feel the other person is superior in some way or the other....cant be impressed definitely by you, given the innocent soul that you are...you jus mark that person as having an ATTITUDE.. :)
ok lets not deviate from d intended post...ya so this guy finally gets to talk to me...me ofcourse being one of the most popular people in the office..he he he..everyone gets to know me...my name...my work...my age...my religion...my place of stay...my home town...etc etc...so am not really bothered if some new person whom i have never seen in my life comes and says "hi pretty" to me...so anyways...we spoke and had a bunch of common frnds and started having a gala time in office...sitting on bench...passing our times with every rubbish possible in office...spending almost all the time in cafeteria...or...reading forwarded mails...or jus sitting in the pantry and commenting about the screwed Satyam System..those were good days...but alas we spent them getting frustu...thanks to all d IT industry omen associated with being on bench..
ok so...ya all i knew about this guy is that hes very very interested in bikes...and keeps modifying some or the other part of his bike...but i was not sure of his passion for speed...until i biked with him on his apache...and i must say...hes jus too good a rider...i mean i have seen this kind of biking only on tv...
ok so thats the justification part for my title...biking with viewty...i went with my friend on his bike to buy viewty and it was an amazing expereince biking with the new viewty...and amazing biking capabilities... :)
i have been on bikes with so many of my friends...and even i have driven bikes myself....but what i saw with this friend was something i have never imagined myself doing....biking at a speed of 100 KMPS...on a totally traffic packed road on a weekend evening in a metro like chennai …this is one experience that’s gonna give me the chills everytime am even gonna think about…
K so after we bought my ultra mod piece of cake… he jus cudnt stop from speeding up on our way back home…ya may be its difficult for bikers to drive at normal human speeds when they believe they can drive so much faster…doesn’t really matter if they can actually scare every other normal person on road to death when they vroom past them with their extra super biking qualities.. So this one biker with me was an addition to the super elite club of bikers and I had no ideas about his super duper biking abilities. And when the bike sped up to 100 KMPS…I really dint think it was sucha big deal….after all everyone enjoys speeding up on a sleek and sexy bike….but I started getting the chills when I realized that it was serious “BIKING” and not jus enjoyment…. It was ok if the bike was jus speeding up…it became worse when I saw that the bike was actually making its way from between such heavy vehicles…where there was no place for even a single person to stand… may be that’s what they call thrilling…how to make your way out of places where others cant even get in….and then there were times when we will have to stop cuz of a traffic signal…and this amazing thing which my frnd rides…comes down from 100 to 0 KMPS in less than 5 secs…could you jus believe it…you don’t even apply breaks…or may be you do apply some special kind of breaks which do not let you fall abruptly…but you actually come to a halt…ok and when the signal turns green!!?? Don even ask…whos got time to stop when the signal has already turned green!!?? And if its bikers…well you don’t really have to even think…they will not stop even if jesus’s second coming is happening…immediately after the signal turns green this guy started speeding up as if some firestorm is following us…and things became worse when really a firerstorm started following us….not really a firestorm but something worse than that…we vroomed past some dumb biker…dint have any idea that he could be a biker himself…and what comes next!!?? This biker vrooms past us…provoking a rather decent biker to race with him…and will some attitude guy stop for nuts!!?? Huh and final conclusion!!?? I became the victim…as these 2 bikes kept vrooming at speeds that the speedometer could no longer keep track of…I was most scared of the moments when these 2 bikers were abreast….i jus cudnt stop imagining the other one thrashing us down at the slightest move…I mean when 2 highly fast moving things are speeding up so close to each other…not allowing the other to get ahead of one…well anything could happen…one moment we could be speeding ahead of him…and the other…may be …not even existing…it was all a game of speed and coordination…as for me….it was more of coordinating to keep my eyes closed rather to witness my own end….finally I jus cudnt take it and I started screaming…stop the bike…am scared.. :(
After shouting some 100 times….my friend finally let the other weirdo win…and I know how difficult it is for a super duper biker to allow the other one to win…but I was helpless…it was jus tooo tooo much for me…it was sweet enuff of my friend to ask me if I was feeling ok!!?? Well after all the SUPER DUPER THRILL for the day…I was feeling much better than just “OK”…but trust me it was fun…though little scary…but I thoroughly enjoyed it…am not sure if I will ever be a part of this crazy racing thing again…but if I am…am definitely gonna have major fun… :)
so read on...may be yu will feel the nerve with me as i write of this experience..
hmmm...k clarifications regarding the title...well i got a new cell phone...as the old one conked completely...and this new ones called VIEWTY...ya thats the name...sounds amazing na...i know...even i am impressed with it as much as i can be.. :)
its a real beauty..ultra sleek looks...amazingly stylish...superbb touchscreen...ultra hott piece to possess....ahem ahem...the price is ultra hot as well.. but does that matter so much when yu have so much more for yourself !!?? well def not for me.. :)
haan so here i have this ultra hot cell phone with me...one of the hottest selling in the market at present...and am soooo elated with this one...but whats with the biking stuff prefixed with the viewty in my title!?? haan so lemme tell yu how it gets connected..
i have this friend of mine whos been a gadget freak...and an amazing racer...racer of bikes....thats how he had depicted himself when i had seen him first in office...some freaky guy with long straightened hair...all d hip-hop ringtones on d mobile...an amazingly expensive mobile flashing in his hands...and loads of attitude..(dunno in the right direction or not...but ya this guy has ATTITUDE).. so definitely you cant expect him to answer you straight when you ask him something.. well and thats what he did.. ATTITUDE you see....i think am using this word too much...actually i feel when people cant really express another person's behaviour or may be feel the other person is superior in some way or the other....cant be impressed definitely by you, given the innocent soul that you are...you jus mark that person as having an ATTITUDE.. :)
ok lets not deviate from d intended post...ya so this guy finally gets to talk to me...me ofcourse being one of the most popular people in the office..he he he..everyone gets to know me...my name...my work...my age...my religion...my place of stay...my home town...etc etc...so am not really bothered if some new person whom i have never seen in my life comes and says "hi pretty" to me...so anyways...we spoke and had a bunch of common frnds and started having a gala time in office...sitting on bench...passing our times with every rubbish possible in office...spending almost all the time in cafeteria...or...reading forwarded mails...or jus sitting in the pantry and commenting about the screwed Satyam System..those were good days...but alas we spent them getting frustu...thanks to all d IT industry omen associated with being on bench..
ok so...ya all i knew about this guy is that hes very very interested in bikes...and keeps modifying some or the other part of his bike...but i was not sure of his passion for speed...until i biked with him on his apache...and i must say...hes jus too good a rider...i mean i have seen this kind of biking only on tv...
ok so thats the justification part for my title...biking with viewty...i went with my friend on his bike to buy viewty and it was an amazing expereince biking with the new viewty...and amazing biking capabilities... :)
i have been on bikes with so many of my friends...and even i have driven bikes myself....but what i saw with this friend was something i have never imagined myself doing....biking at a speed of 100 KMPS...on a totally traffic packed road on a weekend evening in a metro like chennai …this is one experience that’s gonna give me the chills everytime am even gonna think about…
K so after we bought my ultra mod piece of cake… he jus cudnt stop from speeding up on our way back home…ya may be its difficult for bikers to drive at normal human speeds when they believe they can drive so much faster…doesn’t really matter if they can actually scare every other normal person on road to death when they vroom past them with their extra super biking qualities.. So this one biker with me was an addition to the super elite club of bikers and I had no ideas about his super duper biking abilities. And when the bike sped up to 100 KMPS…I really dint think it was sucha big deal….after all everyone enjoys speeding up on a sleek and sexy bike….but I started getting the chills when I realized that it was serious “BIKING” and not jus enjoyment…. It was ok if the bike was jus speeding up…it became worse when I saw that the bike was actually making its way from between such heavy vehicles…where there was no place for even a single person to stand… may be that’s what they call thrilling…how to make your way out of places where others cant even get in….and then there were times when we will have to stop cuz of a traffic signal…and this amazing thing which my frnd rides…comes down from 100 to 0 KMPS in less than 5 secs…could you jus believe it…you don’t even apply breaks…or may be you do apply some special kind of breaks which do not let you fall abruptly…but you actually come to a halt…ok and when the signal turns green!!?? Don even ask…whos got time to stop when the signal has already turned green!!?? And if its bikers…well you don’t really have to even think…they will not stop even if jesus’s second coming is happening…immediately after the signal turns green this guy started speeding up as if some firestorm is following us…and things became worse when really a firerstorm started following us….not really a firestorm but something worse than that…we vroomed past some dumb biker…dint have any idea that he could be a biker himself…and what comes next!!?? This biker vrooms past us…provoking a rather decent biker to race with him…and will some attitude guy stop for nuts!!?? Huh and final conclusion!!?? I became the victim…as these 2 bikes kept vrooming at speeds that the speedometer could no longer keep track of…I was most scared of the moments when these 2 bikers were abreast….i jus cudnt stop imagining the other one thrashing us down at the slightest move…I mean when 2 highly fast moving things are speeding up so close to each other…not allowing the other to get ahead of one…well anything could happen…one moment we could be speeding ahead of him…and the other…may be …not even existing…it was all a game of speed and coordination…as for me….it was more of coordinating to keep my eyes closed rather to witness my own end….finally I jus cudnt take it and I started screaming…stop the bike…am scared.. :(
After shouting some 100 times….my friend finally let the other weirdo win…and I know how difficult it is for a super duper biker to allow the other one to win…but I was helpless…it was jus tooo tooo much for me…it was sweet enuff of my friend to ask me if I was feeling ok!!?? Well after all the SUPER DUPER THRILL for the day…I was feeling much better than just “OK”…but trust me it was fun…though little scary…but I thoroughly enjoyed it…am not sure if I will ever be a part of this crazy racing thing again…but if I am…am definitely gonna have major fun… :)
Satyamotsav '08...
Satyamotsav...the name that has a lot of significance for me...known and unknown...revealed and hidden...true and assumed...whatever yu may call it...but this was important to me...i still remember the first ever satyamotsav that i could have been a part of, being a satyamite...will tell you later why i jus couldnt make it...first lemme tell yu non satyamites, what exactly satyamotsav is...its the annual (Ahem...supposed to be annual...but i dunno if it really is annual now...they jus keep celebrating it whenever they feel like it...or may be whenever they have the necessary funds...or may be when the associates make too much noise about the satyam fun@work concept.. :)) ya ok so it’s the annual union of all satyamites all over India.. again am sorry am not sure if theres a concept of satyamotsav outside India as well..hmm…so satyamotsav is that time of the year where all satyamites…working in all cities, facilities, client locations..etc etc.. come together and have fun together..may be even meet each other which they might not do usually owing to their busy schedules…so ya i understand that you got the concept of satyamotsav…
Well to me satyamotsav was all this and much more…I cudnt be a part of satyamotsav in 2006…owing to some dumb reasons…and actually one of my very gud friends in those days was out of town that time and I jus dint feel like going for an utsav without him…as being so new to satyam Chennai…I hardly had any gud friends to actually enjoy or have fun with.. and that could have been a start of some significant chapters in my life… and may be it was also…but anyways…those are not the things I am writing this post for..
Satyamotsav 2008 was one opportunity I jus dint want to let go…I am not a part of satyam now…but man…I still am so stuck to satyam…I still don’t feel am anything different from satyam at all…anyways…jus 2 days after I resign is the auspicious day of the utsav…and so I am definitely going for it…cuz there mite not be another satyamotsav that I might witness…
Now the biggest challenge was to arrange for a ID card for me as I am no more a Satyamite…and there starts the game of asking every girl casually…r yu going for the satyamotsav this year… :) girls and usually as the dumber they can get…usually undecided till the end moment…depending upon I dunno whattt!! Somehow I manage to get this one lady’s ID…now I don look anywhere like that lady ok…but ya who cares…I mean I have an ID card swinging around my neck…and that’s enuff to let others know am a satyamite..
So I go for this much awaited much significant utsav….and as the much popular figure that I am…well I cudnt be left unnoticed…and there it was…with loads of people asking me the same thing…hey babes…how come yu r here!!??…c’mon man…I served satyam for almost 3 years!!! Don’t I deserve one utsav!?? So what if I have resigned satyam…and satyamotsav is a festival only for satyamites..!!??
OK OK…so all this bally hoo about rubbish…finally what about my experience at the great awaited Satyamotsav…man….except for the popularity part…everything else was decently avoidable…I mean except for the joy of people coming and asking me and esp guys coming and saying ohh yu r looking pretty…and stuff like that…everything else in the utsav was…I don wanna use fowl language…but ya everything else was jus not utsav types…I mean this could have been the worst behaviour I would have expected from “CORPORATES”…of a CMM LEVEL 5 company…I dunno on what basis they let these standards stay.. :(
It could have definitely been better with some decent shows to be put on…but alas…there was jus nothing enjoyable…ok so lets jus go for the food atleast…hav some stomach filling dinner and get back home safely…is that what my friends thought…!!?? Well dinner was the most unruly part of the evening…I mean it much looked like they were serving food for people in jail….rather people in jail will behave more decently I believe….on the sight of food people…”CORPORATES” and their elite CORPORATE families just pounded over it as if they have never seen dinner in their whole seven lives….or may be like they have been starved for generations for this one night’s dinner…even before the poor servers could open the packets of fruits…it was well torn like a box damaged by bomb explosion…and so as you can guess…my excitement of dinner was also over….jus wanted to get back home… :(
Anyways…it was good meeting all my fellow satyamites one last time…may be I will never be a satyamite ever in life again…and I jus dint want 2 miss this one last chance of being one… on my way back…I jus cudnt stop myself from going back in time….remembering memories good and forgettable…lost I was in those days…and how much I wished I could turn back time…and hold it in the space gone by….i wished to cry..to laugh..or may be jus to be back…and as it is…nothing returns…LIFE GOES ON…and so does its strings…
Well to me satyamotsav was all this and much more…I cudnt be a part of satyamotsav in 2006…owing to some dumb reasons…and actually one of my very gud friends in those days was out of town that time and I jus dint feel like going for an utsav without him…as being so new to satyam Chennai…I hardly had any gud friends to actually enjoy or have fun with.. and that could have been a start of some significant chapters in my life… and may be it was also…but anyways…those are not the things I am writing this post for..
Satyamotsav 2008 was one opportunity I jus dint want to let go…I am not a part of satyam now…but man…I still am so stuck to satyam…I still don’t feel am anything different from satyam at all…anyways…jus 2 days after I resign is the auspicious day of the utsav…and so I am definitely going for it…cuz there mite not be another satyamotsav that I might witness…
Now the biggest challenge was to arrange for a ID card for me as I am no more a Satyamite…and there starts the game of asking every girl casually…r yu going for the satyamotsav this year… :) girls and usually as the dumber they can get…usually undecided till the end moment…depending upon I dunno whattt!! Somehow I manage to get this one lady’s ID…now I don look anywhere like that lady ok…but ya who cares…I mean I have an ID card swinging around my neck…and that’s enuff to let others know am a satyamite..
So I go for this much awaited much significant utsav….and as the much popular figure that I am…well I cudnt be left unnoticed…and there it was…with loads of people asking me the same thing…hey babes…how come yu r here!!??…c’mon man…I served satyam for almost 3 years!!! Don’t I deserve one utsav!?? So what if I have resigned satyam…and satyamotsav is a festival only for satyamites..!!??
OK OK…so all this bally hoo about rubbish…finally what about my experience at the great awaited Satyamotsav…man….except for the popularity part…everything else was decently avoidable…I mean except for the joy of people coming and asking me and esp guys coming and saying ohh yu r looking pretty…and stuff like that…everything else in the utsav was…I don wanna use fowl language…but ya everything else was jus not utsav types…I mean this could have been the worst behaviour I would have expected from “CORPORATES”…of a CMM LEVEL 5 company…I dunno on what basis they let these standards stay.. :(
It could have definitely been better with some decent shows to be put on…but alas…there was jus nothing enjoyable…ok so lets jus go for the food atleast…hav some stomach filling dinner and get back home safely…is that what my friends thought…!!?? Well dinner was the most unruly part of the evening…I mean it much looked like they were serving food for people in jail….rather people in jail will behave more decently I believe….on the sight of food people…”CORPORATES” and their elite CORPORATE families just pounded over it as if they have never seen dinner in their whole seven lives….or may be like they have been starved for generations for this one night’s dinner…even before the poor servers could open the packets of fruits…it was well torn like a box damaged by bomb explosion…and so as you can guess…my excitement of dinner was also over….jus wanted to get back home… :(
Anyways…it was good meeting all my fellow satyamites one last time…may be I will never be a satyamite ever in life again…and I jus dint want 2 miss this one last chance of being one… on my way back…I jus cudnt stop myself from going back in time….remembering memories good and forgettable…lost I was in those days…and how much I wished I could turn back time…and hold it in the space gone by….i wished to cry..to laugh..or may be jus to be back…and as it is…nothing returns…LIFE GOES ON…and so does its strings…
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