Let it go...

Writing on the last day of 2007....i am inspired to write something by J.D. Jakes that i read in one of the mails recently....something that touches me and am sure all of us can relate to some part of it in some way or the other... something good to start the New Year with... :)

There are people who can walk away from you.
And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.
When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The bible said that, They came out from us that it might be made manifest > > that they were not for us. > For had they been of us, > no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]
People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.
LET THEM GO!
And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over.
Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of goodbye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in goodbye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.
LET THEM GO!
If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to...LET THEM GO!
If you are holding on to past hurts and pains...LET THEM GO!
If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth...LET THEM GO!
If someone has angered you...LET THEM GO!
If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge...LET THEM GO!
If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction...LET THEM GO!
If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents...LET THEM GO!
If you have a bad attitude...LET THEM GO!
If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...LET THEM GO!
If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship....... LET THEM GO!
If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves...LET THEM GO!
If you're feeling depressed and stressed...LET THEM GO!
Get Right or Get Left, think about it, and then...LET THEM GO!


Thats how life goes...Let It Go...and start afresh...cuz the best is yet to come.. :)

schmaltz...

schmaltz...really!!?? well well... no not really....may be jus an exaggeration for d post.. :)

actually all dis razzmatazz, dis ballyhoo...owing 2 a visit 2 my old college...err..university...i dont really know how many of my old buddies are gonna read this post but i jus needed to post this.

Lats week i had this aweful time.... visiting my university for a reason meagre....and what do i see there...well things have definitely changed...jus hoping for the betterment. i remembered the days when my fellow mates used to carry cell phones hidden in all possible unreachable places..(I dont think i need to specify the details ;))...and then now i see students (thats what i suppose they were.. :))... flashing their phones stoutly...yess thats jus one of the many things i saw that has changed. i still remember the nites i spent in the hostels of Sathyabama as well as St joseph's....and trust me those were really "THE DAYS"....there was not one nite we dint decide on sleeping early and getting up early....and wen did we actually retire to bed?? :)
and those endless discussions we used 2 have about the rubbish college rules and how many "IT SUCKS" proverbs....rubbish and crap was d fave words 4 d deemed univ.. :)

ohh and how can i ever forget those raids for electronic thingies in d hostel....man i lost so many of my good collectible music...reason...!!!??? you are not supposed to carry eletronic gadgets inside the deemed univ campus!!??? phewwwwwww......... :(
ahhh...and then wat was next?? getting fake letters from d HOD...that the thingies were kept for college day practice....ohh well that reminds me....our HOD has changed as well...nice man...very sweet guy....he resigned... :)

when i left the deemed university campus 2 years ago....i never really dreamt of comin back there...and believe me i dint regret a bit that college was actually over for me...but now when i went back to college...how much i wished those days could come back...the only headache those days was... :)
where to go over the weekend...whom to ask to send the fax 2 get outta hostel....whewwww....how to manage the uncountable CORRRRESPONDINGS of java sir... or how to keep myself awake during networking lectures....how to tell d POC sir that he actually was very funny...and not intelligent.. ;).... ohh and the amazing DSP paper....ohh man how does an engineering graduate ever pass that paper...!!?? :( ... ahh...and how to find atleast one smart dude/dudette in d campus!!!??? :)

jus walkin the campus i realized....everyone mus be walkin atleast 5 KMs inside d campus everyday....from d mess hall 2 d class...to d mainlab...to d other lab...to d director's office for some lucky ppl lik d dept of CSE'05...i jus cudnt stop myself from getting reminded of sitting in one of those classrooms and trying not 2 sleep...trying 2 get something out of the lecture of which i dint know head or tail....makin a face that will look as sincere as possible that i understood everything...when i know i am waiting for that person to stop for the day....and when i see other people i wonder how they manage...they all knew whatever they teach is dumb and anyways no one's gonna ever listen to it...but still they wanna...and c'mon yu cant tell someone what r yu thinking when d class is going on....anyways...it was all fun....esp when ppl like OS mam was in class...almost begging us 2 let her write something on d board.. when we had an important announcement 2 be made....and what was that??? someone's dog has given birth to 2 puppies and they need to be sold!!?? now what can be more important than THIS for an OS lecture?? :)

my college as they say in the records is a ragging free college....is it really!!!??? naaah....and wats d fun if yu don get in tch wid yur seniors the way they want!!?? :) those ragging sessions in d train...when guys used 2 get away with ragging saying they are from hindustan....and i was fool enuff 2 get ragged by someone from hindustan when he said hes my senior from 3rd ECE Sathyabams......... :(

those one nite stands before the midsem day....lining up in front of the prof 2 get some "IMP" questions...he he..actually gettin the whole paper on SMS at 12 in d nite...now thats wen we warm up 4 d prep...and those 5 min prep standing in front of the exam hall...and then there were times....when i dint even know what were the 7 papers in d sem....all i did was sms till 5 in d morning....sleep till 6:30...get up..get ready...catch d last possible bus from madhya kailash....and....sleep thru all d lectures...thinkin wat d heckk...tryin 2 stay awake d nite before the dreaded day i always used 2 wonder how we stay awake talkin rubbish thru out d sem...but wen i have an exam d very next day...i jus cudnt keep my eyes from closing...forget concentration.. that was miles apart for d prep..

whenever i think of my college days...well i can only smile at the amazing ways we used 2 invent 2 gettin ourselves outta trouble...those fake faxes, fake phone calls from local gaurdian, fake signatures....and fake IVs....even now when i tell ppl of my college i know what they think...that is one of the most boring colleges in chennai....may be true....but i had fun in those 4 yrs...kinda fun i wouldnt have had being anywhere else... :)

blasé

Am writing after a long time...was busy...dunno doing what.. :)
Lots surpassed me during these few days in the past.. i mite never write out all that happened as it hurts to look back and think.. and may be when i look back the only sound i can hear resounding in my ears is... what did you gain..what did you lose...was it worth the pain.!!??
ya lots of time, its all jus blasé...
its easy to write out things artistically...make people believe whats written is true... but what you feel is what you live with...theres not much to think about...or else you will end up writing rubbish jus lik dis one on a cold december nite.. :)
LIFE is too short....start living..before it betrays you.. :)

The Exodus...

Why do some people come into your lives when they are supposed to go away...Do we meet to part? Ya i know as they say people will come and go but life goes on...Life doesnt stop for anyone...but at times there are moments when you feel someone touched you deep inside and you mite not go on without them. There were times when you spent enduring experiences with them and there were times you shared your sorrows with them and cried on their shoulders....there were times when they made you laugh forgetting every other thing in the world and then there were times you felt nothing else in the world is above you... there are people who leave an imprint on your mind and soul and you just cant force them out of your thoughts....even when they are gone.

life goes on...no one ever leaves to come back...the exodus never ends...

One Art...

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.

---Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

I Carry Your Heart...

I carry your heart with me
(i carry it in my heart)
I am never without it
(anywhere i go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)
I fear no fate
(for you are my fate, my sweet)
I want no world
(for beautiful you are my world, my true)
And it's you are, whatever a moon has always meant
And whatever a sun will always sing is you
Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root
and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky
of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart
(I carry it in my heart)...

Sunshine..

Indian cricket is enjoying the best sunshine in decades...Whatever happened in South Africa was not cricket, it was Emotion. It was also not a happenstance...it was an effulgent outcome of a calculated, energetic and patriotic action tempered by pride. It was a demonstrations of youth power. There they were, eleven young men with only meager experience, wearing their blue uniforms with innate pride for the honour of playing for the nation. They threw caution to wind and took plunge headlong. They took on the world's best and the mightiest in the newest version of cricket-- Twenty20 -- and became world champions in a ravishing manner. The sweet taste of success is barefaced, but this one's flavour is beyond words. The whole nation is cognate on this feeling which none can capture in words...

For the first time in many years, Indian cricket is enjoying a popular confidence of an unprecedented intensity. Though there were anxious remarks that India will not do very well in this inaugural Twenty20 World Cup, there were also larger numbers taht believed that India will make it to the top. By the time India thrashed the mighty Australia in the semi-finals, an overwhelming majority of fans had already gifted the Twenty20 World Cup to Mahendra Singh Dhoni and his young team. It was certainly not the best team in the tournament, atleast on paper. What made the difference was the team's self assertion.

The journey now will never be easy, particularly under the weight of popular expectations. Teams pipped by India will come back with a sense of vengeance. That will make the game all the more interesting for the fans, but difficult for the team. The real test, thus, will come now. But Indians seem all cinched. Thats the gain...thats the spirit...Cheers team India!!

Carpe Diem...

I have been chasing this space for so long tryin 2 write something close to my heart...

I espied a day in my life to be impeccable in every way plethoric and meager...and thats i guess wat most of d species are moonstruck with... a naive life that has wended its alley thru oodles of experineces sribbles down d memoir of a cruise...There was a time when the visible hem was the family you lived with, the friends you shared your school hours with and that was all that mattered. You slept a good nights sleep not really digging deep into the brass tacks of this real world. And then came a day when you had to part with the cosiness of your confines and brook the satire of life. You commited some howlers...and you learnt the chalk talk...you played different roles and felt the smack of each. You met some people who stirred you in their own ways…you made them a part of your lives as their ways crossed yours…may be influencing decisions… and one day they were also gone... and you start to tally what you are left with. Life has bizarre ways of teaching the dope..but you learn in any of the ways. The awe that comes with every new experience is barefaced...and still we learn...kissing off all the assortment of emotions. And all that matters is how happy you are at the end of it all. From the moment you become cognizant of the essence of yur existence...you fathom nothing really is enduring…things change, people change, locations change, relationships change, desires change, decisions change, emotions change, and even YOU change…that is what the essence of LIFE is…CHANGE…Everything that impinges you, changes…that’s the satire of life…the only thing that’s amaranthine is change itself.

I ironed out a way of life for myself…I fancied a morrow, but seldom does everything rely on you alone…the strings attached to every bliss jade you by the time it comes out of the labyrinth…you start finding joy in something but you know that’s not gonna be till doomsday…but that’s the way to live…somethings bequested to you and you keep saying that its not gonna last forever so I better not enjoy it now…Live the life lavished on you in its satiety. The chattels showered on you must get their share of time with you…and that’s how life becomes fulfilled… you assay and relish everything tendered and that is the staff of life.. Don’t make an endeavor to box happiness in a cocoon…it has to fly and spread its aura. Let it go free and you gather the driblets that fall on you. Don’t try to put time in a capsule…it will wait for none…but the time bestowed to you..none can seize it from you until you let it go…Let every trice pass by after all that it holds has been educed by you. The destiny of anything has not been revealed to the human race ever since its genesis…all we know is that change will be coeval till the apocalypse…hic et nunc is what is yours today…Enjoy the moment…Lose yourself…Do not give a chance to Regret…SEIZE THE DAY…CARPE DIEM…

The Razzmatazz of the Indian Idol...

The journey of the Indian Idol started 3 years back when a theme inspired by a reality show in the US became a mania in every household in India. Twas a new theme a rather experimental theme for the Indian crowd and no one would have prophesied that it will one day become the biggest reality show on the Indian grounds. It was such a frenzy that it captivated every being...young and old..
The first Idol, Abhijeet Sawant...an unforgettable one, got mixed riposte from the flock..I was myself not very satisfied with the denouement as i had a little soft spot for Amit Sana...he being from my hometown but lately after the album release of Abhijeet, really felt this guy had content. A couple of songs from his latest album "JUNOON" are my fave these days..amazing work! The second Idol, Sandeep Acharya...cute smilin' face was easily forgotten...not much ballyhoo this time i guess...people were no more charmed by the theme...cuz almost every channel in this one year time span had dumped enough talent hunts and other reality shows...alas Indian Idol 2 had lost its appeal...and was being counted as mere just another reality show in a rabble...the arch of all reality shows had lost its eclat..But it looked like a different story for the Indian Idol season 3...A record-breaker in terms of voting...with almost 7 Crore votes received...a record-breaker in terms of the winner...Prashant Tamang, who learnt music from hearing...never had any professional training in music and competed with the voices that had been trained over years...That was a good attempt on his part but to be candid...I really dint find anything so gala in him which would have put him on a higher ground than Amit Paul, the runner-up. It came as a surprise for many when the Darjeeling based lad stole the show vanquishing the down to earth, ever smiling, and extremely talented Amit. I still wonder how the whole nation can be so wrong in judging...or may be am wondering on what grounds do the masses actually vote!!?? Is it the voice, is it the singing style, is it the looks, is it smartness, the personality of the person, the location...or what on earth do they see in the singer to vote for him!!?? I still cant say how pertinent it is to judge the Indian Idol thru voting by common people, majority of whom might not have good understanding of music!? But may be it wont be justified to place the onus of choosing the Indian Idol on four judges as well. The long 8 months journey of the Idol witnesses a lot of emotional ups and downs, sees a lot of talents exiting the stage early not because they dint have a better voice than the rest but because of the lack of votes that they were able to bring into their lots..I am stil wondering if selecting the Indian Idol is just about getting the best voice in India!! You go to every nook of the country to get the voice you are searching for, thats absolutely justified...but how much justice are you doing to them after bringing them here on centre stage and evicting them to be chosen or rejected on the basis of the number of votes rather than on their real talent of singing??
I dont know if its wrong or right...justified or not...All that can be said is that popularity of the Idol matters...left alone the prize moneyand other perks...all that matters is that people of the whole nation have chosen you...oughtta do justice to the trust levied on you...After all the Indian Idol is truly the People's Idol..

My Jaunt Back Home...

A journey that tallied to a curveball 2 me.. never really thought will be sad at leaving this place..though its not forever that i'll be gone..jus a fortnight.. My departure this time started with a goulash of outlandish things.. happy and sad..things i hadnt really anticipated. As usual i dint really have a reason for goin' home..may be jus a break from the routine office life. Lotsa things have changed since the last time i was home..and may be so comes the package of surprises this time.
"Enjoy The Moment" as someone said to me once..i guess these three words have become a way of life for me these days...and thats the way to live i feel, jus being happy, enjoying every moment. Isnt this what all of us are living for!?? Lead a happy life...the nub of all the elbow grease in this real world!! Long journeys always give me time enough to canvass my own life..the long journey taht i have wended...the people i met, the magical moments i enjoyed, the tart smack of De facto, the times i laughed, the times i cried..and things that make me feel my journey till now worth a LIFE at that.. :) Now i know life is not worth jus to think...its rather to LIVE...
All night i've been listening 2 music close 2 my heart..pondering my way ahead, the view from my window would have lured any lucid being, the half crossed moonlight makin the verdure glisten in myriad shades of black, grey and white..twas a state of ebriety with the raindrops gliding unremittingly on the laminated window along my seat..those far away lights takin me on a nostalgic voyage thru some of the most memorable moments of my life...oh how much i wish i could turn back time.. but is that what i am here for!? Am here...waitin agilely to eke out every iota of bliss that each moment encapsulates. Havent travelled thru this route before and it offers new things to explore and experience...true with our life journey as well...take new turns, take new routes, give chances for new experiences and there you are...doin wat yu want...enjoyin every moment.
I believe in the theory of the predestined destination...so wen the omega has already been set for you...its in your hands how you wanna reach it...toilin' and cribbin'...or smilin' and enjoyin' every moment....Journeys always come to and end...so will this one soon...and am happy am gonna remember this one as an inerasable one...enjoyin everything that it offered me...Whats Meant To Be...Will Be...Enjoy The Moment.. :)

Lose Yourself...

Look, if you had one shot, one opportunity
This is everything you ever wanted...
One moment..
Would you capture it or just let it slip?

You better lose yourself in the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime.

Kitni Baatein...

Kitni baatein yaad aati hain
Tasveerein si ban jaati hain
Main kaise inhein bhooloon
Dil ko kya samjhaaun

Kitni baatein kehne ki hain
Honton par jo sehmi si hain
Ik roz inhein sun lo
Kyun aise gum-sum ho

Dekhe mudke ye dil ka kaarvaan
Kaise aayi hai aisi dooriyaan...

Zindagi...

Ek pal ne jaate jaate
Aane wale pal se kaha....
Tu muskura..
Jo tere haathon mein nahi hai
un baaton se hai tu kyun khafa...
Ek pal ki har khushi hai
Zindagi hai isi pal ki daastaan...
Na is pal ka...Na kal ka pata...
Na koi shikwa...Na ab hai Gila..
Tere dumm se...
main har ghum se....
hans ke mila...

Mera Saahil...

Yun chal pade hain, rahi safar mein..
jaise nadi aur kinara
phir bhi kinare tho sukhe hi rehte
lipta kiye unse dhara.


Thode se baadal, Thodi si baarish
kohra bhi kal tha chaya
itne ujale ho gaye achanak
apna bhi dikhta na saaya..

Tu...

Tu bin bataye
mujhe le chal kahin..

jahaan hain teri baahein
mera saahil vahin.
Jise tu gungunaye
meri dhun hai vahi...

Tu bin bataye
mujhe le chal kahin..

You...

The most mellifluous of all created things for me...
your mere presence makes the irk in me to assuage..
your touch enrobes me with the shyness of muliebrity..i wanna lose myself going frail under the vigour of you..when i am with you, i savor an aura of aegis under your mantle..
All my deceptive accoutre and feign efface out before you..my veracious self is dauntless to pomp before you..
I lose myself for you with so much ease..my seity blends so effortlessly in your likeness, to find the marvel called us..
For all the love that i wanna give to you..all your flaws and smirch raze out to nothing.
Every moment spent with you is so beautiful..
Each new dawn...i wake up to find more moments with you..
In your own way you have shown me the true Myself..
I spend every trice engrossed in you..deeming nothing else matters..
Your ubiquity in me is the Elysium in this mundane life..

Yaadein...

Yaadein...
Bhulane se yaad aati hain
kuch aisi baatein hain...
jo milke bhool jaate hain
ye unki baatein hain...

Gham ye nahi hai ki
raha nahi wo pyar wahi...
Gham hai tho bas yahi..
tum wo nahi..

Yaadein..
ab tho bas yaadein hain...
bholi si yaadein...
tumhari yaadein hain..

May be Sometimes...

Hi People....
Its long since i wrote anything...actually its long since i took time to feel anything...
what follows here is not something that i have written...but may be something in the following lines touched me....hope many of yu will agree wid me wen yu read this....
Life........teaches us a lot of things everyday, every moment...i know it does to everyone....thru some incidents...or may be thru some ppl in our life...it does...and at the end of it...all that matters is that how someone can make a difference in your life even if yu meet them for jus a short while....
Do read and post yur comments... :)

Now, I don’ wana lose you…
but I don’ wanna use you…jus to have somebody by my side…
And I don’ wanna hate you…
I don’ wanna take you…but I don’ wanna be the one to cry…
And that don’ really matter
to anyone anymore….
but like a fool I keep losing my place…
and I keep seeing you up thru that door…

Theres a danger in loving somebody too much
and its sad when you know
its your heart you cant trust…
Theres a reason
why people don’t stay where they are…
May be sometimes Love jus ain’t enough…

I cud never change you…
but I don’ wanna blame you
baby you don’ have to take the fall…
Yes I may have hurt you..
but I did not desert you…
may be I jus wanna have it all…
It makes it sound like thunder…
it makes me feel like a wave..
Like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking somethings gonna change…

Theres a danger in loving somebody too much…
and its sad when you know
its your heart they can touch…
Theres a reason
why people don’ stay who they are..
May be sometimes Love jus’ ain’t enough…

Me...

what do I say I am…
Do I define myself with the things that matter to me the most..
Or do I define myself with the ways I matter to others the most!!??
I am a dreamer…
I fantasize of a flawless Chimera…
May be what I dream mite come true someday…
but I don’ live alone in my dreams…
there are people and things….and everything has its part in this real world too…
“Paradise” is what I indulge myself into in my dreamland…
and this real world…which teaches me bitter new things every passing day….

urges me farther from it every moment…
Love is all I have in my paradise…
Love to give out…
Love to share…
Love that’s pure and not demanding….
and not bound or attached with any strings…
Love is what rules my Chimera….and so it stays SO I guess…
I am a child whose brought to the asperity of this world
with every strike of satire…
from some whom I had made my universe…cuz I imagined everything was as chaste as me…
I’m a naïve leaf…
which is muzzled in myriad ways….by all its trusses…
ignoring its throe for existence…
But I know above all…
I’m a mystic creation of Almighty…
an endowment sent from above…
to fulfill HIS special purpose..
to pervade “My Real Own”
to satiate eternity…
in this real world!!