Kuch Dil Ke Kareeb...

Jaane kya mujhse zamaana chahta hai,
Mera dil todkar mujhe hasana chahta hai,
Jaane kya baat chalakti hai mere chehre se,
Har shaks mujhe aazmaana chahta hai..

Mutation..

Why is a change always so difficult!? When I was a student I had this one seminar that I attended and one of the activities in that seminar required the participants to come out of their comfort zones. It was a difficult exercise…but that is when I learnt that theres something called a comfort zone for each person under each situation. But what exactly is the comfort zone!?? Somethings that seem totally impossible in the beginning become quite easy once attained…and tend to become our comfort zones once we reach them. As has been experienced by me on more occasions than one…that nothing in this real world is amaranthine except for change itself…and still a change is so difficult always…painful at times and fatal for some who cant understand this simple dogma of life.
Its so simple and easy to write things down…why cant the reality be as simple as that…a friend of mine once wrote to me…”most of our difficulties are becuz our expectations are not met…to end your problems… either change your expectations or accept the reality.” The scope of the doctrine called LIFE… but one single thing that every sane human thrives for is…to lead a happy and satisfied life…SATIATED…is what every soul wants to be at the end of it all…at the end of all the toil…
I think of times when I really was satiated but without knowing that… was looking for every other thing in this world… and now that I know what I have lost… I still wonder…what I lost and what I gained…
Sometimes I cry thinking of the things I have lost… and life ahead seems so really impossible without those lost ones… and then I sit and think why cant life jus be the way it is now …forever…!!?? Why do things really have to change… and sometimes I feel why is there time enough to even think about the change…sometimes I feel I am strong enough to face every situation and every change that life throws on me…and then again sometimes I feel I don have strength enough to stand and face that change that’s coming my way…I look at it approaching me and try to run away from it…faster than it…so that it cant catch me… so that I don’t have to face it…
Change is difficult to face…easy to write about…and…forget it…
Change is unchangeable…gotto live with it… :)