Wo Lamhe...

This is one movie that moved me quite a lot...was always fascinated by all the songs of this one...and today i watched the whole movie..claims to be based on the life of Parveen Babi...i dunno much about this actress but i can only feel pity for the way things turned out for this actress...i feel so sorry for the days she would have spent in recluse...GOD only knows what all she would have gone thru in her life that took her to such a dreaded state of life...
The movie depicts how she climbs the staircase to become one of the most glamorous actress of her times...how her personal life betrays her at each and every step, and how she keeps weaving her own world of imagination, getting secluded from every emotional contact, imagining that the whole world is against her and wants to kill her...how the world stood against her and no one stood by her and left her secluded in her misery and loneliness...and one man who truly loved her more than his own life was there by her...the one reason he was alive was for her....to see her get back her life and be normal...finally she dies of schizophrenia...and this guy's life almost comes to a stand still....
the song that comes at the climax of the movie really touches me..
Mujhe phir tabah kar,
mujhe phir rula ja...
sitam karne wale...
kahin se tu aaja...kahin se tu aaja...

Very touching lyrics there by Gulzar...something so true for someone whos life's one sole mission was to see his love live...
the movie ends with an even more touching thought...when the guy says that the moments he spent with his love will be there even if the existance of her is no more...jus like a castle of sand collapses to nothing by the waves of the sea...so is a man's life...nothing remains except the memories...wo lamhe kabhi khatam nahi hote...kabhi mit the nahi..

Sneeze and number 5...

this is in continuation of my prev post...




now i know yu must be thinking whats the connection!? nice topic 2 write about... well for all of you who dont know whats the connection...well you sneeze and some dumb ediot asks you 2 tell a number...and after all the pain of that sneeze you have to tell this ediot some dumb number....and then this dumb ediot becomes surprizingly very happy.. :)






Reason!????









this dumb ediot cites the reason back to some ediotic old tradition/custom/belief...watever on the earth that can mean...it seems when you sneeze...it implies someone is thinking about you..and wats the connection with number!!?? it seems the number yu say corresponds to some alphabet in english and so the person whos name starts with that alphabet is thinking about you....ohh my GOD....and i thought so many people can be thinking about you...and what if some person has a French/Latin/German/Kalíníngradian/Hersegóvínaian/../.. name!?? well may be only people with english names have the authority to think about you as per the rules of this stupid old game. Anyways am not really interested in getting into the intricacies of this game or whatever it is...



r yu really reading the stuff i jus wrote?? so it implies..(without the application of any complex formulas)...but of course application of little common sense...that yu r absolutely jobless....i mean who on earth will read dumb stories abt some dumb ediot who cant digest his own stories??!!??

c'mon nw...don start cursing me...yu better don start catching up a sneezing cold wid all d thinking i am gonna start doing about yu.. :)

aww...am so sorry i din tell yu y i wrote dis post 2 be a continuation of my prev post..well well well...may be some dumb member of some inexplanable species wants to express his/her gratitude towards me that i gave him/her ( see don keep wondering y i am writing his/her...remember i hav still not revealed the identity of the great species...actually still dint understand the intricacies of the species..)...ya that i gave him him/her a whole post dedicated on his/her loving emotions towards ...elephants @ GC..so he/she keeps sneezing and thinkin of number 5... :)

Elephant at GC....

Ok... now for all yu guys who r thinking what that means...well lemme tell yu all how it starts...GC expands to Gajendra Circle @ IIT Madras...thanks to the IIT jargon, you will see more of these kinda expansions. Life in IIT as my bro an ex IITian says....is an out of the world experience...and that anyone can guess the moment one steps into d esteemed IIT campus. I have always been fascinated by life @ IIT. wish i was little more serious about studies during my school days...i wud hav saved myself a seat in one of the IITs... :(
Anyways this post is not about my aspirations to touch the IIT grounds...nor my aspirations to hav a life like one depicted in FPS(Five Point Someone...)...nor 2 hav a cool nick name which almost all d IITians hav...which hav no meanings outside the gates of IIT....etc etc...rather its about the life of the elephant standing gloriously in the IIT Madras GC.. think of the importance of these 2 gajas there....i mean everybudy on the IIT campus knows them...crosses them hundreds of times...and they stand so much importance in IIT Madras campus... :)
Actually one of my friend(Name not disclosed for personal reasons !!) was so very moved with the Gajas...that she actually wanted to stand there instead of the gajas....feeling sorry for the gajas you see...i mean they stand there without complaining in the sun, the rain and the thunder storms...this post is a dedication to the immense emotional attachment my friend demonstrated for the gajas... :)
This friend of mine has always had this ultimate interests in every ultimate species that you cant even think of being emotionally attached...i mean things like emotional attachment for elephants, i mean those elephants which are not even alive...emotional attachment for dhondoo(Another rare species of either koala bear or some monkey), and then again for other rare species(Again names cant be displayed for some personal reasons).either that the names of the species cant be displayed or you can even say the species cant be explained itself :)
..now this is an ultimate place for doing her "chops"...in her jargons... :P
i guess enough of dedications for the gajas and all the emotions attached with the gajas....ahhh i forgot to mention...she has some emotions towards the bechare deers of IIT as well....last week she took me to IIT and almost stopped there leaving me forgetting me....reason...madam was busy taking snaps of the beautiful and cute deers...haan now i know y she has so much emotions for the gajas.....now after reading this post i am damn sure shes gonna feel so much more glorious than the actual GC gajas that shes gonna throw them out of the GC and stand there instead.... :)

i am so proud of you Ms. gajendranandan.. :)

Let it go...

Writing on the last day of 2007....i am inspired to write something by J.D. Jakes that i read in one of the mails recently....something that touches me and am sure all of us can relate to some part of it in some way or the other... something good to start the New Year with... :)

There are people who can walk away from you.
And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.
When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The bible said that, They came out from us that it might be made manifest > > that they were not for us. > For had they been of us, > no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]
People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.
LET THEM GO!
And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over.
Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of goodbye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in goodbye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.
LET THEM GO!
If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to...LET THEM GO!
If you are holding on to past hurts and pains...LET THEM GO!
If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth...LET THEM GO!
If someone has angered you...LET THEM GO!
If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge...LET THEM GO!
If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction...LET THEM GO!
If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents...LET THEM GO!
If you have a bad attitude...LET THEM GO!
If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...LET THEM GO!
If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship....... LET THEM GO!
If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves...LET THEM GO!
If you're feeling depressed and stressed...LET THEM GO!
Get Right or Get Left, think about it, and then...LET THEM GO!


Thats how life goes...Let It Go...and start afresh...cuz the best is yet to come.. :)

schmaltz...

schmaltz...really!!?? well well... no not really....may be jus an exaggeration for d post.. :)

actually all dis razzmatazz, dis ballyhoo...owing 2 a visit 2 my old college...err..university...i dont really know how many of my old buddies are gonna read this post but i jus needed to post this.

Lats week i had this aweful time.... visiting my university for a reason meagre....and what do i see there...well things have definitely changed...jus hoping for the betterment. i remembered the days when my fellow mates used to carry cell phones hidden in all possible unreachable places..(I dont think i need to specify the details ;))...and then now i see students (thats what i suppose they were.. :))... flashing their phones stoutly...yess thats jus one of the many things i saw that has changed. i still remember the nites i spent in the hostels of Sathyabama as well as St joseph's....and trust me those were really "THE DAYS"....there was not one nite we dint decide on sleeping early and getting up early....and wen did we actually retire to bed?? :)
and those endless discussions we used 2 have about the rubbish college rules and how many "IT SUCKS" proverbs....rubbish and crap was d fave words 4 d deemed univ.. :)

ohh and how can i ever forget those raids for electronic thingies in d hostel....man i lost so many of my good collectible music...reason...!!!??? you are not supposed to carry eletronic gadgets inside the deemed univ campus!!??? phewwwwwww......... :(
ahhh...and then wat was next?? getting fake letters from d HOD...that the thingies were kept for college day practice....ohh well that reminds me....our HOD has changed as well...nice man...very sweet guy....he resigned... :)

when i left the deemed university campus 2 years ago....i never really dreamt of comin back there...and believe me i dint regret a bit that college was actually over for me...but now when i went back to college...how much i wished those days could come back...the only headache those days was... :)
where to go over the weekend...whom to ask to send the fax 2 get outta hostel....whewwww....how to manage the uncountable CORRRRESPONDINGS of java sir... or how to keep myself awake during networking lectures....how to tell d POC sir that he actually was very funny...and not intelligent.. ;).... ohh and the amazing DSP paper....ohh man how does an engineering graduate ever pass that paper...!!?? :( ... ahh...and how to find atleast one smart dude/dudette in d campus!!!??? :)

jus walkin the campus i realized....everyone mus be walkin atleast 5 KMs inside d campus everyday....from d mess hall 2 d class...to d mainlab...to d other lab...to d director's office for some lucky ppl lik d dept of CSE'05...i jus cudnt stop myself from getting reminded of sitting in one of those classrooms and trying not 2 sleep...trying 2 get something out of the lecture of which i dint know head or tail....makin a face that will look as sincere as possible that i understood everything...when i know i am waiting for that person to stop for the day....and when i see other people i wonder how they manage...they all knew whatever they teach is dumb and anyways no one's gonna ever listen to it...but still they wanna...and c'mon yu cant tell someone what r yu thinking when d class is going on....anyways...it was all fun....esp when ppl like OS mam was in class...almost begging us 2 let her write something on d board.. when we had an important announcement 2 be made....and what was that??? someone's dog has given birth to 2 puppies and they need to be sold!!?? now what can be more important than THIS for an OS lecture?? :)

my college as they say in the records is a ragging free college....is it really!!!??? naaah....and wats d fun if yu don get in tch wid yur seniors the way they want!!?? :) those ragging sessions in d train...when guys used 2 get away with ragging saying they are from hindustan....and i was fool enuff 2 get ragged by someone from hindustan when he said hes my senior from 3rd ECE Sathyabams......... :(

those one nite stands before the midsem day....lining up in front of the prof 2 get some "IMP" questions...he he..actually gettin the whole paper on SMS at 12 in d nite...now thats wen we warm up 4 d prep...and those 5 min prep standing in front of the exam hall...and then there were times....when i dint even know what were the 7 papers in d sem....all i did was sms till 5 in d morning....sleep till 6:30...get up..get ready...catch d last possible bus from madhya kailash....and....sleep thru all d lectures...thinkin wat d heckk...tryin 2 stay awake d nite before the dreaded day i always used 2 wonder how we stay awake talkin rubbish thru out d sem...but wen i have an exam d very next day...i jus cudnt keep my eyes from closing...forget concentration.. that was miles apart for d prep..

whenever i think of my college days...well i can only smile at the amazing ways we used 2 invent 2 gettin ourselves outta trouble...those fake faxes, fake phone calls from local gaurdian, fake signatures....and fake IVs....even now when i tell ppl of my college i know what they think...that is one of the most boring colleges in chennai....may be true....but i had fun in those 4 yrs...kinda fun i wouldnt have had being anywhere else... :)

blasé

Am writing after a long time...was busy...dunno doing what.. :)
Lots surpassed me during these few days in the past.. i mite never write out all that happened as it hurts to look back and think.. and may be when i look back the only sound i can hear resounding in my ears is... what did you gain..what did you lose...was it worth the pain.!!??
ya lots of time, its all jus blasé...
its easy to write out things artistically...make people believe whats written is true... but what you feel is what you live with...theres not much to think about...or else you will end up writing rubbish jus lik dis one on a cold december nite.. :)
LIFE is too short....start living..before it betrays you.. :)

The Exodus...

Why do some people come into your lives when they are supposed to go away...Do we meet to part? Ya i know as they say people will come and go but life goes on...Life doesnt stop for anyone...but at times there are moments when you feel someone touched you deep inside and you mite not go on without them. There were times when you spent enduring experiences with them and there were times you shared your sorrows with them and cried on their shoulders....there were times when they made you laugh forgetting every other thing in the world and then there were times you felt nothing else in the world is above you... there are people who leave an imprint on your mind and soul and you just cant force them out of your thoughts....even when they are gone.

life goes on...no one ever leaves to come back...the exodus never ends...